I can’t remember the last time I was actually happy. How sad is that? People around me are reaching huge milestones like getting married and buying houses. I don’t even have an apartment. People who I thought were friends really aren’t. That hurts.

I’m tired of not having someone to share things with, especially when all my friends seem to have that someone now. I hate being the “3rd wheel.” It’s the most depressing thing ever. There’s a guy I like but I refuse to do anything about it. Anytime I go after a guy it never ends well and that has me scared to approach anyone now. It could be “3rd times a charm” or “3rd strike you’re out” and I just don’t want to even try or risk being hurt once again.

I don’t cry and I’ve cried numerous times since last week. I even tried the “Think Positive” approach and that lasted a day, if that.

I could go on and on about bullshit right now but I’m just too tired to even do that. Seriously, each issue could have it’s own post.

This time I’m just going to include the original tattoo and the latest picture. The latest picture is from today and about 12 days after the 3rd treatment. The picture was taken outside in natural light which might give a better idea of how the treatments are going. I’ll have my 4th treatment in August. IMO, it looks like the yellow is finally starting to fade more. I was told yellow was a pain in the ass ink color. I still have three more treatments though and I’m not too worried.

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While watching one of my many crime shows the other night, something dawned on me.

If the FBI were to ever search my computer because I was a suspect or a “person of interest” in a crime, I wouldn’t stand a chance. Even if I had nothing to do with said crime, I’d be in trouble just based on the internet searches they’d find! I can just see it now, pleading my case to a scary guy in a suit.

Perhaps I should save a file called “Dear FBI” that reads something like this:

Dear FBI,

Please don’t let the internet searches and numerous books you find in my room fool you. I really am innocent! It’s not research, it’s just curiosity. Seriously!

Do you think something like that would help? Hm, didn’t think so.

Over the past couple days I’ve been on a mini-online shopping spree of sorts. It all started when I went looking for some dresses or skirts. I hate shorts (jean shorts anyway) and need something to wear when it’s 100 degrees outside. I ended up buying two simple items, a dress AND skirt, from AE. They were already on sale and I had a code for another discount. It took forever though to make up my mind. I kept going from one online store to another and comparing prices and then I’d add something to the cart and remove it later. It took way too long.

Then Saturday I was on Amazon and on the welcome page was Dexter: The Complete Second Season for $18.99. I’ve never seen it that low before which meant I had to buy it. It should be arriving any day. In case you’re wondering, it’s still on sale but now it’s $19.99.

Sunday rolled around and once again I found myself on Amazon where this time I was able to find Burn Notice - Season One for just $12.99! Can you fucking believe it? Normally it’s around $30. I would’ve been an idiot not to purchase it for that price. I’ve been wanting to buy it and I’m glad I held off. Perfect example is right now it’s still on sale but for $22.99. I can’t wait for it to arrive. I missed most of Season 1 and can’t wait to catch up. If you don’t watch this show, you should. It airs on the USA Network on Thurday nights at 9pm!

Whew. That was a good amount of shopping. I don’t think I’m done though. Now that I have an awesome bookcase I have the urge to buy more books!

My books are now happy! They are out of the drawer they’ve been calling home and now are located in their awesome new home. My room is pretty small and I only have 2 shelves on my wall. One is holding photo albums and the other was holding my DVD’s. As you can see, this left little room for my books. Sady, I placed them in drawer because I had no other options. That’s now ended! My uncle made me an awesome bookcase out of Teak.

Isn’t it lovely?! He hand made it. You’d think something like this would take some time but he actually had it done in less then a week. He’s retired now and has nothing else to do. That means he sits around and makes things out of Teak. Now, are you ready to see happy books? Are you?

I have all my True Crime on one side and on the other, all my other stuff. Then of course DVD’s down on the bottom. I know I have more books though, just no idea where they are.

I have my next laser treatment tomorrow. This will be treatment number three which means three down, three to go. I can see a difference and others can as well. The best part is I’ve already paid the treatments off. I made my last payment on Thursday! How exciting. That’s almost as exciting as finally having this ugly ass thing gone. I know what you guys want though, pictures. Here you go.

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The last picture I actually took tonight. The only thing that sucks about this weeks treatment is the fact I’m dogsitting starting Wednesday and I’m not going to have anyone to help me put ointment on it or take right after pictures. Let’s hope it doesn’t itch as much as it did last time.

I don’t think I’m going to write up anything about the weekend. Really, you can see everything in the pictures! We had a great time and it was really awesome to finally get Manda out here to Baltimore. Nothing super exciting happened or anything. I did spot something rather interesting while Downtown though. I saw a girl with a raccoon tail pinned to her pants just like the girl who was on “What Not To Wear.” I was seriously waiting for Clinton and Stacey to pop out and snatch her up. I should’ve taken a picture but I think I was just in such a state of surprise I didn’t know what to do except to stare and do a double take.

Meanwhile I’ve been thinking about my next vacation. I think I’m going to head down to Florida during Spring Training next year. I think I have a friend who’d be interested if she has the money for it (She just bought a house). It’s hard to find any 2010 (2010!? WTF?!) information yet but I did manage to find a little. The prices really aren’t that bad depending on where you look, how long you go, where you stay and how many people you have. Plus airfare is always pretty decent to Florida if that’s not included in the packages. I know the Orioles offer packages but I bet their more expensive but they might come with some extra perks.

As long as we’re on Florida, I think I want to take a little “Burn Notice” stalking trip down to Miami when they start up for Season 4. Jeffrey Donovan is on Twitter and if I pay enough attention I should be able to track down filming. It shouldn’t be too hard, I was quite the stalker back in my Nsync days.

What an awesome weekend! I had a such a great time showing my BFF around the area. This was her first visit to the Baltimore area and I tried my best to cover all the bases in just two full days. I feel like I have a shitload to talk about but have no idea how to write it all out! Plus I’m still recovering from all the walking and being thisclose to Brian Roberts. Here are some pictures to hold you over until I can figure out what I want to say!

Hershey Park

As you can see I was thisclose to Brian Roberts and managed to behave myself. I actually scored two autographs (Berken & Hernandez) of some “Baby Birds.” Sadly, they couldn’t pull off a win.

Anyway, enjoy the pictures until I can write up a little summary!

My BFF comes into town tonight! Her flight arrives at 10pm and I can’t wait! I have a fun packed weekend planned. Tomorrow we’re going to Hershey Park and Saturday we’re heading Downtown! We’ll enjoy the Inner Harbor during the day and then head to Camden Yards at night. I know I’ve mentioned this before but I bought us tickets 3 rows back from the dugout. I’m beyond excited! I can’t wait!

I hope everyone had a nice weekend! If you went out I hope everyone was safe about it!

I had a pretty busy weekend myself. Saturday I got my hair done in the morning and that evening I went to DC to watch the Orioles take on the Nationals. It was my first time visiting the new park and I thought it was pretty nice. It’s open and has a little mix of old and new school. We had seats in the 400’s but we were right behind homeplate which was pretty awesome. The best thing about the game was the fact the O’s won. It was weird watching a game in another standing and being the “away fan.” I’m use to cheering when everyone else cheers but it’s not like that when you’re the visiting team! All in all though it was a fun night! Here are a few pictures from the game.

Sunday was the traditional party at Vicki’s. She had a large crowd like always. It was nice to see people that I don’t see that often. I even invited a guy friend from work and he showed up. That was pretty exciting because he’s a nice guy and cute (he’s in the blue shirt in the first picture). He got there around two and he didn’t leave until I did around nine. It was a great day for a party though. We played a little Beer Pong, went swimming in a slightyly green pool in our clothes and just had an awesome time. I always look forwards to Vicki’s parties. Of course here are some pictures from that.

Before I forget I want to thank everyone for the nice comments on the new look! I really appreciate it!